Ok so Aliyah you came out of surgery at 6:15p.m. And the wait was long and scary, everytime a doctor called to update us my heart would start pounding. When you finally came out it was a little bit shocking my heart dropped when I saw you laying there in the bed your head was still a little bit bloody, swollen, and the stitches were raw. It was a lot to take in at one time. Everything I prepared myself for Had gone out the window, I can't explain the hurt and relief that I felt inside when I saw you. Then they had to pick you up and move you into your new crib, your body looked so lifeless and small that broke my heart. When they finally got you settled into your crib they hooked you up to all kinds of machines and monitors, your eyes open, dazed and confused, moaning and unhappy with doctors EVERYWHERE! I just wanted to push them all aside and scoop you up in my arms.
I think that the biggest surprise to me was that there were no bandages. The incision was what I had expected, from ear to ear across the top of your head. It was very bloody and looked so sore! I think I was expecting a smile or one of your sweet coos at this point....no, just a lot of unhappiness, grogginess, not knowing what was going on...."what the heck just happened mom" kind of look.
I was stronger than I thought I was going to be, I didn't really cry I teared up more than anything. Daddy on the other hand started crying, it killed him to see you liked that.
The swelling is something that is hard to deal with. I know that it is not painful, but your head is just so puffy and swollen!! Unfortunately, the swelling is going to get a lot worse before it gets better. We were told to expect that your head will look bigger and your eyes will be swollen shut by the morning. Then, in about another day or so, it will start going down. As long as your not in any pain then I will be happy!
Ok, that is about it for now!
